.

i held hurt

like a bag over my shoulder

like a chain on my ankle

i held it

gripped it

i dont know how or why

but i felt frustration

anger

and just hurt

felt low, the lowest i think

and i dont think it was you

or what happened

i cant explain

like it was waiting to happen

and it just happened at that time

with those particular people

is there some one to blame

i dont think so

it just happened

theres apologies

theres remorse

theres hurt

theres plain numbness

...

i dont know