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Explosions in the Sky.

wordless.

voiceless.

thoughtless.

just the sound.

no words in this tune.

to interrupt.

just a beat to my mind.

everything has crumbled.

ive lost a few things.

yet im still fortunate.

just learning to be grateful still.

im not enjoying this thing.

this thing called growing up.

who should i be around?

what should i be doing?

i am basically drifting through each day.

heading in no real direction.

i need a job, but i dont want to begin working 24/7, even though i need to.

cos if i do. who knows what will happen.

i need to be there for them.

they cant be let down again.

you told me to remember how it started.

to remember when i first got excited about things & was truely alive.

and as you said that, and looked at me, tears filled your eyes.

but i will be okay.

its like when im honest with L, you see me now,

you have that look that comes across your face,

almost like you actually do understand,

almost like you see straight through me,

and want to take away everything thats holding me back.

i barely know you. but you are real to me.

even if others have opinions.

...now that A has gone, things are changing.

this year is almost through.

and its been like a long drift. its been so up and down.

at times so good. yet other times so bad.

ever since i stopped being a kid.

things have been like this.

... and right now.

i feel inbetween an end and a beginning.

everything starts with an end.

a few people have gone and a few people are coming.

something is ending. a season.

and something new is beginning.

i hope im ready for it.

i dont think i am. but i'll take it.

keep moving forward.