.

i can't even listen to those songs anymore.

they make me tear up.

there's the memories.

the moments.

the gifts.

the jokes.

and now what has happened.

it hurts.

i've never felt this.

you really do mean alot to me.

i still care so much.

yet the tears drop.

and i just wonder how its happened.

is there something more to explain.

i hear these songs.

and i can't take it.

i rip the cd out of the player.

i can't listen right now.

i could barely look you in the eye.

when i saw you i'd quickly look away.

or walk away.

i miss how it was too.

you were so sad.

i didn't like seeing you like that.

and, even though this has happened.

still, i want to give you the longest hug.

and say you havn't messed everything up.

it will be okay.

i still love you.

and even though it hurts now...

you're still my cutie.