.

i didn't know that.

why is it easy for me?
why aren't i feeling anything right now?
i'm like numb.
not actually feeling much at all.
i miss you heaps.
but i'm so calm about it.
why aren't i freaking out like other day?
how has my mind managed to just forget about this?
or atleast just subside?
i do care. i really do.
you will understand. soon.
try be strong. please.