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last night.
yet again another night of being told stuff i needed to hear and hearing the songs i should be singing and standing around others i should be getting to know.
yet i just stood there. holding back so many tears. i let them run a bit but i held back. i couldnt say anything. i could barely raise my arms. i am stuck. i just wanted to stand and listen. i tried but couldnt hear. so i walked to the back of the room and sat crossed legged against the wall with my face in my hands. and just sat. i wanted it to finish. as soon as it did. my friend had something to say to me.
i had this image of you. and you were a sheet of paper and as wind came, that sheet moved but didnt fall. and God says, you are stronger than you think, you are stronger than this sheet of paper. you are stronger than you think...