.

writing in reaction.

i didnt know you all had my blog...

now that im aware

will it change how and what i write?

its like im being watched now.

i thought barely anyone had it

i thought i was real alone in this.

hmm. anyway. thats alright.

nothing to do this week.

no one to see

its been weeks, months almost since ive really seen people.

only every sunday, but even then its like no one.

no one calls

no one txts. besides bug :)

ive blocked myself in a bit

and its actually alright.

i dont feel the need to reach people,

do alot of things,

or open up to anyone,

or anything like that.

im just on my own.

visit bug a bit.

my twin is around a bit more too.

a twin is pretty good,

if you dont have one

you should try get one.

mm there is so much that could go through my head now

so much i could be angry about. furious in fact.

so much i could also be happy about. and glad.

today was, ridiculous in my home

although i slept in a foetal position majority of the day cos pain killers were 'calmative'

but then came dinner and just cos i made dads dinner, mum got friggin questionable and grr

all hell broke loose. again. like it used to

what ive always grown up with and not a thing has changed..

things are different when youre not crowded with people in your life

at the moment, i find it okay.