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"i was watching the movie star wars recently and wondered what made that movie so good. of course, there are a thousand reasons. but i also noticed that if i paused the dvd on any frame, i could point toward any major character and say exactly what the person wanted. no character had a vague ambition. it made me wonder if the reasons our lives seem so muddled is because we keep walking into scenes in which we, along with the people around us, have no clear idea what we want."

these arent my own words.

i havent had my own for a little while.

i guess ive actually been doing things. havent been home, all ive been doing is seeing friends and playing with toys.

what do i want?

more importantly, what do i need?

i dont know when ill be able to answer these questions.