.

Lord of glory. make us worthy to possess your name. And give us a new name. And call us your people, God.

“I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. You will live in the land I gave to your forefathers; you will be my people and I will be your God."
Ezekiel 36:26-28

And through all of this, there is nothing, absolutely nothing.
No fear, no insecurity, no doubt, no hesitation that will ever, ever stop us.
Because we are the sons of the living God.
Because we are the children of the Almighty.
Because we are the residents of the kingdom of Heaven.
And we are soldiers in an army of the immortal.
And when we speak life, life happens.
And when we speak healing, healing happens.
And when we speak truth, truth happens.
And when we go and take what we have found to a dead world, we'll see it come to life again.
And when we take what we have found to a hopeless world, we'll see hope come back.
We'll see the heart of our world start beating again.
And we'll see the colour come back into people's faces.
And absolutely nothing will ever stop that.
And mountains will move before us.
And oceans will part before us.
And the dead will raise before us.
And the world will know that our God is a god that heals.
That our God is a god that lives.
And our God is a god that loves unlike anything anyone has ever felt before.
Because we are fearless.
Because we are His hands.
And because we are His feet forever and ever.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
this song has been on repeat for a little while now. i listened to it a couple weeks ago but it didnt make me think like it is now.
its making me think of how it all can really be.
that it can all be pretty good.
real and not too bad.
it makes me think i miss it all.
and think that alot of it really isnt apart of me
this skipping church. this not really being a leader but a friend. this not doing anything a christian would.
this, is becoming strange to me. i dont know what im doing.
these lyrics say alot. alot i used to be apart of.
alot i used to believe alot. alot i used to quesion alot too. but now. its in one ear and out the other.
like alot of things
but
when i hear this song.
it makes me feel like i want that back again.
but i don't want the stress or the challenges or the feeling of not being good enough or like everyone else or fitting in or doing things how i should.
i just want to be apart of something. and i think this could be it
although when i think of being a part of something, i think of art galleries and making documentaries and travelling with a camera. i dont know.
i guess one choice after the other it goes. not one big thing at once. just thing after thing at a time.
guess it can be simple like that.
puzzle piece after piece. each piece is small but significant. thats cliche but true i suppose.
ill go with that.
or at least try.