.

being told i 'crossed a line'
by two that dont know anything about me
that i think have assumed alot, in saying what they did.
it really got me
to the point of tears
to the point of confusion
again
but then to the point where i know it shouldnt be a certain way
and to a point where what they said doesnt matter, entirely.
ill cross this 'line'. if it means, these girls will have someone around for them
age. 4 years. 5 years. itd be different if they were 20 and i was 24. so different.
you wouldn't be saying anything then.
but for some reason it matters cos theyre in highschool
i understand. i actually do. but i fail to see the real significance of it.
no im not going to spill my deepest thoughts, rely on them, suffocate them or anything like you think
we're friends. we muck around. we have fun. and we care.
and if they need someone to drive somewhere in the middle of the night. i'll do my best
if they want someone to listen to them. actually listen. i'll do my best
those things that really matter. i'll do my best.
i know what you think all of this is
i know. i feel like you judge me, assume things about me and think you know everything about me.
but i dont think you do at all.
and i know you mean good.
but
you're not in this.
it's going to be different this time.
i can't let myself get caught up in what other people say.
and that won't happen again.
cos these girls are too precious to me.
yes. they really are.