.

okay.
time to be the honest youth leader. the type you've always wanted to be.
not the hypocrite.
after an urban life night you're dropping her home and you sit in the car and talk for a length of time that it requires you to turn the engine off.
and you realise.
this girl is exactly where you are at, or were at.
she is lost, confused, angry, yet upset.
doesnt want this. she is feeling how you've felt.
so now what am i going to say?
where will this go?
i'm not a great pretender.
but i do believe this gear.
i must.

why do i feel like i'm doing saomething wrong if i'm not doing it like everyone else?