.

im scared of these holidays ending.

even though itll practically be the same for me.

it means real life is more real.

it means responsibility kicks in even more.

today mum was giving me the job lecture.

and i said even having a job at a cafe for 2 hours was hard.

i couldnt take the pressure, i couldnt deal with real life, grown up life.

im a kid having to live an adult life.

i dont joke around in saying im a kid.

i actually am.

and its scary.