.

16 days.

and you'll be back here.
and you'll probably be happy,
and fine,
and like nothing was ever wrong.

and it'll all be just dandy.

you may even be oblivious to what we now feel.
what we're now stuck with.
you could've stopped it.

but being selfish has been your main priority this whole time.
i don't need to call you selfish, you do that yourself.

i'm not mad at you. and i won't be.
because it's not like this is foriegn to me now.
this always happens to me.

i let people in and it screws things up.
because there's something wrong with me.
i don't know what. but there is.

none of this matters. i think im growing up really slow. or late.
i'm like a kid trapped in this growing up body.
and it's ridiculous.

a joke.
just to be laughed at.