.

things not going to plan...

how long? how long? how long?

when do we meet again?

and when we do, where do we go from there?

what will you tell me to do next?

will it have to keep going on like this?

if it does, then fine.

if it doesnt,

it wont matter anymore,

cos its already turned out like this.

...

i actually thought they'd be better

i thought they were

i thought it was ok

did i think wrong?

i cant think about any one else?

but them.

how come, i care about her, so much

that i got defensive,

that i would fight

that would cry

that i would laugh

that i would go through every emotion

every thought

every thing in me,

so much

that makes me realise that there is alot attached

when the name is simply mentioned.

i still care

but cos im not there

that isnt really enough.

at all.

saying sorry.

wouldnt mean a thing either.

like i said.

i do what im told.